Doing what you think you couldn’t do
I love this saying because so many of us can relate. We have all thought, we can’t do this, this is too hard.
I’m not good enough or smart enough. It felt like whatever we were going through would never end.
The pain was too much, the addiction too strong, we didn’t have the fight in us. We thought it might kill us or that we didn’t have the strength to take one more step or wake up one more day.
There were so many times in my life that I didn’t think I could do it, that I wanted to give up. I lost so many loved ones, and I wanted to die with them. When I was in the depths of addiction, I never thought I would come out of it. When I walked away from my high school sweetheart I thought I would never love again. When I was in a 24 year verbally abusive marriage I hated my life, and I thought I could never leave and take care of myself or my girls.
When my dad, my best friend and my mom all died within 3 years of each other. When my marriage was failing and I fell back into what I knew best, my addiction and I wanted to end my life.
I had hit rock bottom, I didn’t think I had it in me to rise again, for the second time.
When I finally found God and had the strength to leave, I met a man from my past who promised me the moon and then turned out to be a con artist. Breaking all my trust in men, and I thought I would never trust again.
When I knew I couldn’t swim and I hated running and thought, I could never do a triathlon. I did it and even placed 3rd in my age group.
When I thought I never wanted to love again, I fell in love with the wrong man yet again. When I cried every night, when my heart felt like it was actually breaking into pieces. I never thought I would be whole again.
I did become whole and even after the broken hearts I was still willing to try to love again, even knowing the pain it could cause.
Even after my Prince, the love of my life came and I knew I had to walk away because he wanted children. When I felt like I was going to die without him, I knew my forever man would be out here.
See when you’re in that moment, when the pain is too much, when you’ve been hurt over and over. When you’ve been lied to, cheated on and broken, you can’t see it. You can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel.
But you did it, you got past it, you defeated it. You got over the pain, you stopped crying every night, you started laughing once again.
You got back up after being knocked down, you overcame prejudice and hate. You overcame your addictions and demons. You crawled your way up from the bottom, you did it! You did 
it!
Even when you didn’t think you could. So give yourself some credit, pat yourself on the back.
Life may have knocked you down but you still overcame. Was it easy? Oh hell No! It was hard as hell and you wanted to quit, but you hung on. You got past it and look at where you are now, look at how much smarter you are, how much stronger you are because of it.
So today my friends remember, yes, life is hard sometimes. You will cry, and you will want to quit. You might think you can’t do it but just look back once in a while and see what you did, what you thought you couldn’t do and then you’ll have the courage to fight what is ahead of you.
“Be the change you want to see”
@TreadmillTreats
